My day has been very much like song by The Clash: "Should I Stay or Should I Go." Such a question of indecision... like someone standing at a crossroads.
Yesterday was the orientation meeting for the 2008 Mrs. Utah Pageant. I didn't go. I've kept the idea of competing again in the back of my mind but never really gave it serious attention. Then, last night I get an email from my friend who is directing the pageant this year telling me that she really wants to see me compete and feels that I stand a good chance at winning. She offered me coaching and wardrobe if I just say "Yes."
What would compel me to try again in a competition I didn't even come close to winning last time? Is it maybe the possibility of doing better (the competitive side of my personality says I can get a better score)?... Is it that I get to glam myself up and feel like a princess for a day (even if I don't get to take the crown home)?... Is it that I enjoy stressing myself to the hilt and living in a state of constant anxiety? What is it?
Actually, I can't believe I even gave her email a second thought. I'd be crazy to compete again.
Wouldn't I?
2 comments:
oh oh, see above for comment on this. sorry about that.
wow. I didn't realize you were even thinkin' on it.
hm.
you're always a winner to me.
xx
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